So, I Was Arrested One Night


But before I get into my arrest let me begin by telling you what led up to it. When I was pulling up in my driveway two months ago I got out of my car to get the mail out of the mail box when I noticed across the street the young couple living there having an argument in front of their house. There was some pushing and shoving, there was yelling and cussing, and just like that it was over. I watched the front of their house as I drove up my drive to park. Nothing. I was just thinking to myself if I needed to call the police department but since I couldn’t see or hear anything I let it pass. About an hour later, just as darkness was settling in behind the trees, I was taking the trash out to the cans and I heard them yelling again. I jumped on my ATV and headed back down the end of my driveway to see what was going on. By the time I got down there it was over once again.

Later in the night my wife were sitting out on the front porch talking when we heard glass breaking and then moments later a horrible scream. I told my wife to call the police right now and I took my ATV down to see what had happened. As I crossed the street leaving my driveway I could see a body laying off to the side of their driveway. As I got closer I could see it was the young lady and her body was twisted in an odd fashion. I get off the ATV in a panic of sorts to see if she is alive. Alive, yes, but really bloody. After I quickly surveyed my surroundings I determined the husband must still be in the house. She was trying to talk but the blood in her mouth made only gurgling noises. She had been pushed out of the second story sliding glass doors before falling off of the deck, landing in the grass. Her face was bloody, I tried to wipe it off to see where the blood was coming from but it kept pouring out just in front of her right ear. She was on top of her right leg and the way it sat I knew it was broken. When I straightened her legs out it was obvious it was broke as there was a sharp bone protruding through her pants. All I could do at this point was take off my shirt and hold it over her open leg wound in hopes to slow the bleeding.

I could hear the sirens in the close distance. I saw my wife at the end of the driveway directing them in. The police car was first, then an ambulance, and then the fire truck. The police officer asked what happened, he asked who I was, and what did I know. He walked me about 10 feet away from Sarah as the paramedics took over. Out of the blue her husband comes charging out yelling at the police officer that he wanted me arrested for trespassing. This instantly enraged me I suppose because I took two step and started pounding him in the head with every ounce of strength I had in me. In a matter of seconds he and I were both a bloody mess, not my blood, just his, as he never had a chance to swing back. For an instant I wanted him in the same pain he put his wife in, I wanted him to suffer, and it felt good pounding him under a full rush of adrenalin.

When we were separated we were both placed in handcuffs and sat in two separate cars. An investigator opened my door about ten minutes later to inform me that I was being arrested because the husband was pressing charges. I was removed from the car in a kind manner, patted down, read my rights, and placed back in the car. I watched the ambulance leave and figured it was now time to go. The door opened again so a medic could check out my injuries because of the blood. As suspected, I had none except a dislocated middle finger on my right hand. He gave me a shirt to wear that my wife had given to him and told me I would have a moment to tell her goodbye. She approached me with sad eyes and told me it would be okay and that she understands. The police officer placed me back in the car, closed the door, and away we went. After booking me they checked my injury and then secured me in a holding cell by my self.

A couple of hours later I was greeted at my cell by an officer who told me that I had an appointment with the judge. In the courtroom I was not asked to speak, the judge read the charges, and set the bail. My wife was in the room with us, she was waiting on the bail information, and then she left out of one door and I was led out another door headed back to the holding cell. A couple more hours passed and the officer came back to the cell and announced that I was being released because my wife had paid the bail. He told me that after we did some final paperwork that I would be released and free to go with my wife. Then we left, we headed home, and when we got there all I wanted to do was have a hot shower. That may have been the longest, hottest shower I have ever had in my entire life. As I was sitting on the edge of the bed with my face in hands hunched over, my wife climbed across the bed, kissed me on the back of the neck and told me that what I did she understands and stands behind me. I was neither comforted or alarmed by her statement, I felt guilty because that Sarah got hurt so badly.

A few days later my wife noticed that Sarah was home. I wanted to go talk to her but my wife said it might be better not to. Later that afternoon I get a call from the courthouse to inform me of my case dismissal hearing which was the following day. When I went to the hearing it was exactly that, proceeding had been started and completed for a complete dismal of all of the charges filed against me, to include battery and trespassing. Within a week we saw that her husband was now home. I was sad again because I know this cycle all to well.

Why hang the laundry up here? I thought it might help me work through all of my own emotions before I head to my second therapy session this afternoon. Did it help? I don’t know yet. Maybe I will never know.

Doubling Your “IT System” Pleasure

Information Technology Concept

In December 2012, the U.S. Air Force canceled an Information Technology (IT) program that it had been working on since 2005. The Expeditionary Combat Support System (ECSS) was an U.S. Air Force Enterprise Resource Planning (ERP) system that was designed to merge base level and wholesale logistics systems, and to deliver hard net-savings for the USAF. The Air Force scrapped the program after dumping $1 billion into the project, with no identifiable benefit to the military or to the taxpayer. Furthermore, the project would have required an additional $1.1 billion to fix and the system would not have been completed until 2020.

Why settle for one IT system when you can have two that do the same thing? According to the Government Accountability Office (GAO), that is the practice at several federal agencies, which are administering overlapping and duplicative IT systems. The federal government spends more than $82 billion on IT each year, but according to a recent GAO report three agencies have spent $321 million for overlapping IT purposes over the past several years.

The Department of Homeland Security (DHS) spent over $30 million on two IT programs, both of which supported “immigration enforcement booking management, which includes the processing of apprehended illegal aliens suspected of committing criminal violations of immigration law.” The two systems identified by GAO are used by Customs and Border Patrol (CBP) and Immigration and Customs Enforcement (ICE), but both collect nearly identical biographical data on illegal aliens arrested for committing crimes. However, DHS said it has no plans to address the duplicative expenditures.

Four duplicative IT systems were identified at the Department of Defense (DOD) with a price tag of $30.6 million. Two of these systems were in “Health Care Tracking” and two were in “Dental Management.” Unlike DHS, DOD agreed to work to eliminate the duplicity, but the results are yet to be seen. The most costly duplicative IT systems GAO found are maintained by the Department of Health and Human Services (HHS) totaling $260.38 million. Four of HHS’s systems related to “Enterprise Information Security,” meaning the systems were used to “maintain and secure the operations and assets of HHS and its components.” Two other duplicative IT systems were used for Medicare coverage and contained similar information by the same contractor. While HHS was reviewing whether it could consolidate the four systems related to Enterprise Information Security, it stated it was too costly to consolidate two systems related to Medicare coverage.


Information found for this “Your Tax Dollars @ Work” post was done by using a Google search. Information compiled from multiple public websites & media outlets.

The Harboring of Pedophiles

Recently I found myself caught up in a conversation with an individual with some real bizarre beliefs. In continued conversation in a public forum, both were rather short to say the least, I began to paint a picture of this individual in my mind. Before I get into what I think about this sick bastard I would like to warn you that many of y’all, to include Christians, pedophiles, and enablers, will probably take great offense for this post. If you do not have the stomach for the truth then take this opportunity and turn away and turn your back on the truth about this particular Christian who has a real twisted way of interpreting what he has learned from the bible. You have been formally warned because from this point forward there will be subject matter and language of an adult nature. To say the least this sick fuck has really gotten under my skin and since people like him are protected in the public forum world, I will say my piece here and be done with it. If I don’t get this off of my chest and this piece of shit out of my brain it will be a long, ugly day. In fact, due to the nature of the conversations I found myself doing some research at his website. I personally did not like what I saw. What I saw was quite disturbing. I don’t know if this is because I am not Christian or if what he has to say is just that fucked up. Y’all are probably right; it’s a combination of both. I had plans of writing this post to enlighten this jackass on what dangers a pedophile is to society and that being a pedophile is not a sexual orientation choice by a long shot. The pedophile is a deviant and that is not part of sexual orientation. Let us look a little deeper.
First of all I have never kept it a secret that I am not a fan of organized religion, Christianity, or the people who defend blind faith. Included in that is the people who give false hope to others. I have no time for fable weavers. Which is why I am here today, I want to talk about a twisted fuck that is choosing to split hairs within definitions of the different ranges and degrees of Christianity. I pose this question. Are you a Christian or are you not a Christian? There is no in between. I really hate people who hide behind the banner of Christianity yet have their own separatist views and opinions. If a person is that confused then there are deeper problems. So be it, claim to be a Christian and cling to the bible as you would a worn out tattered blanket. Except this isn’t about Christianity itself, it’s about a jackass who would rather give peace and the benefit of the doubt to a pedophile rather than care what that pedophile has done to an innocent child. Once you rob a child of their sexual innocence for your own perverted reasons you gave up your right for me to consider pissing on your burning carcass. As far as the people who enable pedophiles and coddle them they can jump in the fire as well. It’s hard to get a grasp on a person’s inner workings by what you can only read. However I do not plan on giving this gem of a man the benefit of the doubt. In fact, I am going to provide y’all with his website upon request and let you be your own judge. The wonderful thing about the Internet is that a person is free to be who he wants to be, he is free to speak his mind, and he is free to be as misguided as he wants to be. I think what set me off indirectly was some of his comments, some of what his written reply was to me and others, and for sure the post on his website. It all revolves around him thinking and using his interpretation of the bible to spread the “word” that god loves pedophiles and will accept them into heaven. What the fuck?
How can being a pedophile have anything to do with one’s sexual orientation? Is there anyone out there that can answer that question responsibly? A person who has sexual thoughts and/or behaviors towards a kid shouldn’t even be breathing in my book. Give them whatever psycho-babble bible thumping label you want to give to this sick person, but this person is still just a piece of shit. I have done a great deal of reading on the cause and effect of a pedophile. Doctors think they can cure them, Christians think they can save them, but absolutely nobody can undo what a pedophile does to a child. Why are more people not worried about the lives pedophiles destroy instead of worrying if their god will still love the pedophile. I, at first, didn’t take this joker serious, but I have come to believe that he truly stands behind what he preaches. He believes his own bullshit. I asked him “what if there really isn’t a god, would he still forgive the pedophile if he destroyed one his children’s life?” What do you think the answer was? We will get back to that; just know that he is still in the defense of the pedophile. In reality, where I live, a pedophile is a broken person, a person who cannot be fixed by medicine nor faith. I really have begun to wonder what gets in the heads of Christians when they start believing that god will fix everything and all you have to do is accept god into your life. Fortunately I also live in the land of laws, man’s laws, where sick fuck pedophiles get punished for destroying the lives of innocent children. God isn’t protecting these innocent children from pedophiles or any harm. Just the opposite, he lets it happen. Christians will say that these adversities in life are god’s lessons. Fuck that, my daughters don’t need to learn that lesson nor would god be there to protect the unfortunate bastard that made a poor choice in life. When will the Christians grow up and stop waiting for the fairy tale to come true? It saddens me, since we as men, fight for so much in life but turn to a fairy tale for forgiveness of our sins. We will all pay for our sins in life, its called death. There is no reason to give comfort to a pedophile, he/she is well aware of what he/she is doing. The pedophile knows what they are doing is wrong.
I normally would like to keep my beliefs out of the conversation, but it was time that someone said something somewhere. No matter what research has been done, no matter what the bible might be interpreted to say, the fact remains the same, a pedophile is an absolute predator that preys on the sexual innocence of children. This will never be acceptable to me, never. Giving false hope that the gates of heaven are open to even pedophiles reassures me that I am quite comfortable with the choice I made so many years ago. As I look back here I see that I never gave proper definition of a pedophile or pedophilia. It is defined as an abnormal or unnatural attraction associated with the fantasy or act of sexual activity with prepubescent children. Statistically, most pedophiles are friends, family members, or relatives of the sexually abused child. There are different kinds of pedophile activities which include, but are not limited to, looking at a child undressing or changing and touching a child in a sexual manner. Statistically, most predator acts involve oral sex and/or touching of the genitals of the child or the offender. Studies show that a pedophile is more likely to target children who feel uncared for or lonely and show them at a higher risk. Now I ask my new Christian friend and everyone else reading this post, do you want a pedophile sitting next to your young daughter or son at church, at school, in the park, in your house, or anywhere? If so, you need to call child services so they can publically stone you and burn your parenting card. Sadly, I have learned, is that being a pedophile is next to impossible to diagnose by a doctor or for them to establish how one becomes a pedophile. At this particular time in history it is unclear if it is genetic or learned. It is uncommon for a pedophile to change his/her behavior since the inappropriate sexual behavior with a child is usually longstanding and part of the pedophile’s lifestyle.
Even if a pedophile goes to prison for his/her crime, he/she will never be cured and therefore always a constant threat to society. What are the effects of child sexual abuse from a pedophile? The effects from pedophile sexual abuse extend far beyond childhood. The abuse robs the children of their childhood and creates a loss of trust, feelings of guilt, and self-abuse behavior. It generally leads to antisocial behavior, depression, identity confusion, loss of self-esteem, and many other serious emotional problems which are carried throughout their lives. Later in life it leads to difficulty within intimate relationships. The sexual victimization of children is ethically and morally wrong. Does the pedophile care what damage he/she is doing? If you answered no then you are dead on right because they don’t give a shit about their victim. If they did, if they had once ounce of a conscience, then having fantasies or having sexual contact with a child would never cross their mind. A pedophile knows what he/she wants and gets it at all cost. What can you do to protect your children? Teach your children what proper and appropriate sexual behavior is and when to yell NO if someone tries to touch their sexual parts or touch them in any way which makes them feel uncomfortable. Also, do your part in observing your children when they interact with others to see if they are hesitant or really uncomfortable around certain adults. Last, but not least, and probably most importantly, it is critical to provide adequate supervision for your children and only leave them in the care of individuals whom you trust and deem safe. No, I am not stupid; I know we cannot be with our children 24/7/365 because that isn’t how life works. But, you would be surprised, with a little effort on your part you get the opportunity to be a better parent and build a better relationship which consists of trust and safety with your children. It isn’t easy. You have to try. You must never give up. Pedophiles do not wear signs that point them out and many times are hard to spot or catch. But, if nobody is trying then he/she will always get away with it. As a father, I know I don’t want a pedophile getting his/her hands near my children.
As much as I would like to give this shithead of a Christian’s name, address, and phone number to the public I am making the choice not to. It’s not a favor, it’s not fear, it is out of courtesy that I know somewhere in that bonehead of his he knows he is making some very poor choices siding with pedophiles over general society. But, I will offer you the post he made at his web-site upon request since I don’t want to litter my blog with a direct link to his bullshit and you can decide on your own. As a reminder to new readers as well as the veterans, since some of you may be confused, I do not hate your god. I just don’t believe in his presence or his existence since there is nothing to support anything that has to do with god. Before y’all get your panties in a twist just remember I am not a sheeple in your flock which allows me to think outside the Christian box on my own free will. It is because I allow myself to think freely that I can see things clearly for what they are. Sometimes a spade is just a spade. Fortunately the whole god loves all of his children and awaits their arrival in heaven doesn’t work for me. But, that’s just me. In the end, I don’t think all Christians think like this fucktard and I realize that there are many non-Christians that think way out in left field as well. A pedophile is a monster, an animal which preys on innocent children and should not be harbored by anybody. When I see that there are assholes who think because they are a Christian and have a certain understanding and interpretation of the bible that want to give pedophiles a free pass it turns my stomach. It makes me have discussions with my children and wife about the darkness that is creeping within Christianity so they can be careful when they gather with other Christians every Sunday. I hold my children closer now since I know that there are pedophiles wearing Christian’s clothing lurking around. If nothing else I hope you have learned that you need to keep your children close because you never know who is there to do them harm or who is protecting them under false pretenses.
Other than my personal opinion, all of the information posted here today is of public domain, found in the local library, on the internet, within a variety of papers, within a variety of public forums, and so forth. When I reference my personal opinion as being a source of information it isn’t because I am conceited it is because I have chose to live my life with my eyes and ears open. I have seen many things in my life, here and abroad, but I never have seen a Crhistian defend something so bizarre before. I don’t know if I need to continue to be angry with his stupidity or weep for him. In the end I do believe it will be both since I am both angry and sad that this piece of work exists. 

Wanted: Dead or Alive

Originlly Posted 27 January 2013


This past Saturday evening I was out to my parents visiting after dinner and a long day of work on the house. This has been really common over the last few years, but that night was just a little different, on this particular night my wife called,  not to see how my day went or to tell me good night, but she wanted to tell me my face was plastered all over the television show she was watching. She spends her evenings watching stuff like Nancy Grace, unsolved crimes, and America’s most wanted. She explained she was flipping thru the channels trying to pick a show when she saw my face plastered on the F.B.I. Top Ten Most Wanted. My immediate reaction was that she had been mistaken and must be really tired. Now, she is really frantic and crying trying to tell me what she was watching and so forth. So, I found the show she was watching and about shit myself, it was my face, it was like looking in the mirror. Holy shit Batman! What in the absolute freakin hell is going on here, there is definitely some kind of mistake. However, the spooky park was that as they described his background history, it sounded allot like my background. Needless to say, I got sucked in and started watching, I couldn’t help myself.


I have always heard that each person has a “twin” and if you were lucky you would never cross paths with that person. Why that is I have no idea, its just something my late grandmother used to pass on as her pearls of wisdom. Anyway, I got hooked into this show. When it was offer on got on the internet and started searching and was very alarmed at what I found. There were many similarities and/or coincidences, enough to really make my head hurt. So, I found we are the same age, he is actually 3 whole days younger than me. We were both adopted under really scarily close circumstances. Both of our fathers died when we were teenagers in “freak accidents”, his was not disclosed and I have always thought my own dad’s death was a bit strange. We both married our high school sweetheart, except he liked to beat his wife into submission when he found she was cheating on him, I just divorced mine. We both spent time in the Air Force except he was dishonorably discharged because he tried to kill, thru beating, a superior officer. After that he had a hard time finding a job for obvious reasons. This is supposedly what led him into a life of crime. He started robbing banks and so forth. The last one he robbed was a few months ago in an undisclosed town in Idaho where he killed 3 people in a brutal fashion. After he took all the money he didn’t want any witnesses, so he kidnapped the 3 women, then he raped them repeatedly with things like a tire iron, a baseball bat, and an arm from a maniquin he had laying around. After all 3 of them died of their wounds, dehydration, and starvation, he dismembered each one a disposed of the pieces in various spots. Then, continued his life on the run. That’s where the information stops.


Needless to say, he isn’t a real nice person. I wouldn’t call him my polar opposite, but we are really that different. I spent the night very worried, I wondered what if someone I know confuses me with him and turns me in. What in the hell would I do. I mean, I know I am not the person for sure. Sunday morning, my wife tries to break the tension by making a joke: she asked how long I had been leading this double life. I didn’t see the humor and snapped off something pissy and stupid because she, for the first time ever, hurt my feelings. I can’t explain why because I don’t know why. I know she was joking and just trying to cheer me up. I called her back later and apologized and explained how my night went. I explained that I was wrong and shouldn’t have snapped at her. And, yes, I meant it. I find myself, even as I write this post, having many more questions than I have answers. Luckily I haven’t got no bizarre calls. My parents think it is “funny” and tell me I shouldn’t be too concerned since he doesn’t look exactly like me. Truth be told, he looks enough like me and that is too close for comfort. I wonder where all this goes from here. I will tell you like I told my wife, I will continue to live my life as I have been living my life. I have no reason to change a damn thing in my life. This is one of those weird coincidences in life, just this time it hit pretty close to home. And no, before any of you jokers get the bright idea, I am not going to just fess up and turn my self in.